I'm coloring right now, and I realized the more I colored, the harder my strokes were. The thought of having to see our students this morning makes me cringe. Literally, there is no time to do any administrative work, which means I have to do it on weekends. I have also been stressed out about putting 12 (or more) additional formal working hours onto my schedule once the shop opens. I'm not really a happy camper right now.
I thought that a week in Vietnam with my family would make me come back and welcome the girls/young women back into my life. Near the end of my trip though, I REALLY didn't want to return. I felt nothing, except a little despair, when my plane landed at the Siem Reap airport.
To a certain extent, I feel like I walked into a trap. I shouldn't see it that way, but I DO.
I haven't gotten good sleep since I've been here either, and I'm starting to really feel the effects. Before, not having enough sleep was fine, because I enjoyed my work. Now, it's different, and this is why I've always been against people calling me an activist, because I never said I wanted to devote my whole life to community work.
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hello kathy. i've finally found you. yay. i hope you find some breathing room for yourself soon. push pauSE!
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